The last lesson

I closed two chapters in my life today. First, I finally used up the last session of the facial package which I signed up in 2008. They must be so relieved that they don't have to chase me anymore. I am also happy that I can finally discard the invoice/card and have more space in my drawer. I bet they must be disappointed that I did not continue with them. Well, they did offer me an irresistable 50% off the Gold facial treatment package but I'm just not swayed no matter what they say. Try drugging me and maybe I'll say yes ;p

Next, I delivered my last lesson today. Henceforth, no more listening to CDs, preparation of materials and stressing over if I had prepared sufficient materials for each lesson etc. Frankly, I was relieved. Even as I prepared materials for the last lesson, I couldn't wait to stash away the reference books and dictionaries that have been gracing my desk for the past several months. It reminds me of those days when I took joy in clearing my desk and shelves of books I no longer need when I've finished an exam paper. It also brings back memories of the corporate days where I'll be so glad to file away papers once a project is closed.

This day has finally come. As I concluded my last sentence this evening, the sense of relief and prior joy transcend into a sudden sense of loss. It's the same kind of feeling I get on my last day on the job. From Media to IT days, it has been the same. That strange, unexplainable feeling that I get on the last day at work. It's as if reality has finally sunk in that hey, it's for real, I'm really leaving here and I won't see this for the rest of my life. Humans are so weird. When you're 'in it', you can't wait to get out. When you finally got out, you have that strange feeling of loss and solitary.

There's a season for everything. A new chapter begins when the old one is closed. I know this odd feeling of mine will probably dissipate when I wake up tomorrow morning. A new day begins and perhaps, a pleasant surprise is just round the corner waiting for me:)